9

Hm... well. Today was good. I still wish I could talk to Jason. I miss him. I wish I loved him. We talked last night. I told him because we're in so much pain I wish we could just forget about each other for a couple of years, heal up. And then once we saw each other again, fall in love all over again and grow old together. I really do. He's amazing. I want him to experience life though. And I want to as well. This is really hard. We're going in different directions in life right now and, ugh, it just really sucks.

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s.c.

8

Well, Jason and I broke up last night. Technically it's a break for an unspoken amount of time, but it's still tough.
I basically told him that we can't be together if one of us doesn't love the other one and that it was torture and wasn't fair to either of us. And he agreed. So I did it. I feel terrible. I really do. Ugh.

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s.c.

7

Oy, so last night was a fuckin' nightmare. I was on the phone with my pal from Texas for 3 hours. Until 2:30am. And I was bawling my eyes out. Just talked about a lot of things that were upsetting me. And this morning, I woke up at 6, with a HUGE headache and had to call into work to say I couldn't make it. I couldn't even see straight. It was terrible.

I need to eat.

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s.c.

6

Having Jay over last night rocked! We watched "40 days and 40 nights" a cheesy movie, but it was still funny. And then we watched "Monty Python's: The Meaning of Life" which was amusing. Then it was youtubing for a while and then bed! We woke up and ate a lot of French toast. And then hung out with Jason, Mark and Liam at the Quay. We climbed things, got dizzy and played on the jungle gyms. 'Twas a good time indeed.

Now, its 11:00pm, and I really don't want to go to work tomorrow at 9:00am. Ick! Until at least 4:00pm, and I can tell you, cleaning houses that long sucks balls! I really dislike it. So hopefully I get a call back from one of the VFX places I applied to for an admin job.

I buggered up my knee really bad today too. It really hurts and I can't bend it or straighten it. BALLS! I hate having this retarded knee. Bastard!

Anyways, I need to get to sleep.

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s.c.

5

Hmm, well I woke up around 10:30am today. It's a good time to wake up. I showered, I did my hair, I got dressed, and now I'm waiting for my friend Jess to come pick me up for the VFX class he's taking me to today. Hurrah. My friend Jay (girl) is staying the night tonight. I'm so excited. I love my friends. She's going to Guelph on the 30th though. *sniffle*
I got to talk to my buddy in Texas last night. Richard! of the trees! Huzzah! He's awesome. We talked for like, an hour. Good stuff. I miss him.
I'm off.

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s.c.

-5:00pm

So I'm back now from the AiV class Jess took me to. He insists it was boring as hell, but I really liked it. I watched one guy most of the time, who was making 'Catwoman' or something. Whatever it was, it was amazing! As well, apparently I'm "virginal and innocent." Compliment? I think so! So now, I'm feeding my addiction to bagels... Honestly, there is nothing better then a toasted bagel with butter. *drools* My brother is refusing to do his duties and load the fucking dishwasher. Bastard. I really don't want to do it because of the principle, but the house is a pig sty, and we're running out of dishes. Oy. My internet is acting up though. Which is going to be a royal pain in the arse in about 10 minutes, so I think I'm going to go take my shoes off, and watch some Simpsons. Why? Because it's an amazing show.

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s.c.

4

Work today at 8:15am. Gotta leave at 7:50am. Ugh. I hate scrubbing toilets.
I'll update later.

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s.c.


-5:53pm
Hmmm. Well work sucked. I had to work with Maria. Not the best. Drove me IN-FUCKING-SANE! Ah well. I got my pay cheque.. $303.20. Not the best.. I need more cash for school. Ugh. But on the upside, I got a $5 tip from one of the ladies today. Hurrah for tips. I also got my brand spankin' new resume from the people yesterday! Huzzah! So I printed that out, now I'm working my cover letter. Gonna get myself a job. Woot!

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s.c.

3

Well today was productive. Went to another job workshop. Learned how to improve upon my already kick ass resume! :P And now I'm back home and its just after noon.
My brother is going to a ZZ Top Concert tonight. He's gonna have such a good time.
I GET PAID TODAY! I totally forgot. I should totally go to my work place and grab my cheque! But then I gotta find the bank... And I don't know where it is. Ah well. I wish I could just steal my parents truck to run those errands... but alas I cannot.
I want my brother to wake up... so we can hang out. We don't do that enough. Which sucks. As well, my internet sucks balls ad keeps on kicking me off. Bastards.
*GASP* He's home! He hurt his thumb so the dr. burnt a hole in it instead.. How is that going to help!? Just asking for infection if you as me.


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s.c.

2

It's a quite enjoyable day today. Got up around 8 and went to an interview skills workshop in order to find a job in the visual effects industry. We're taking a quick break, but I'll soon be back and learning how to handle those annoying employers. It's only 10:30am right now, and I am in some serious need of a cup of coffee... you have no idea. Ugh! Tomorrow I go to a resume writing work shop. I'm more interested in that one, but what can you do? Ah! My caseworker is here now. Gotta go talk to her. I'll update later in the day.

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s.c.

-4:40pm
Ok, so I'm home now. I talked to Jason for a little bit. He said he might come over (He lives 2 hours away by transit) but he also said he'd call me. I still haven't done my cover letter. Oi. But I did make an agenda book. Why? Because I'm an organized loser. Pah! It's neat, and I'm proud. The real question is, why did I do that, instead of my cover letter. Answer? Because I knew how. I've never written a cover letter in my life! And my highschool apparently didn't think it was that important. Bastards.

In other news, I have to go to the police station to tell them, AGAIN, just how much I dislike my father and how much I want the peace bond. Honestly, I think Canada's justice system needs to be re-vamped. Just like everyones else's. Protect the victim, not the criminal. As far as I'm concerned, if you break the law you shouldn't have any rights. THAT MEANS YOU MS. LOHAN!

I talked to my good friend Richard again today. It's good to catch up.
Other then that, my life is rather minimal on the excitement bit. I mean... resume writing classes? C'mon. I do think that it's about time for me to print out some stuff... (Again) take a shower (perhaps) and go to the police station (for the millionth time)

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s.c.

1

Well, I've disposed of my xanga account because of the lack of comments I was getting and also because of how inactive my friends are.
I haven't any friends on here except for K.B. but her last post has long since passed.
So I suppose I should tell you a few things about myself. Seeing as this is my blog.

I'm Shannon. Simple as that. "I am nothing special; just a common [woman] with common thoughts, and I've led a common life. There are no monuments dedicated to me and my name will soon be forgotten. But in one respect I have succeeded as gloriously as anyone who's ever lived: I've loved another with all my heart and soul; and to me, this has always been enough." -the NoteBook.
I read, I paint, I take beautiful photographs. I draw, I skip, I sew, and I use chopsticks. I'm French, I'm pretty, I'm stubborn, and I'm young. I love my friends, I reach my hands out to my enemies, but if you've hurt me beyond words, I've forgotten your face forever. I'm in love with a man. I like movies, I like reading. I'm a romantic, but not a hopeless one. I love writing with a fountain pen on coffee stained paper. I love cursive. I have curly blond hair, and blue eyes with a dark green ring in the middle. I can give my heart fully to anyone I please. But I can take it away in the blink of an eye.

Today, I cleaned my bathroom. It needed it. I also fixed my scanner and uploaded my papers onto my computer. I received my transcript this week as well. I haven't open it. I don't work today. Or tomorrow. Or Thursday. I work Friday though. I'm a maid.

Kat, if you read this, I miss you more then words can say. And even though phone calls are awkward, you're still a great friend.

Tomorrow and Wednesday, I have busy days. I'm going to two classes to learn 'interview skills' and 'resume writing skills.' It will be helpful once I start looking for a better job then cleaning. My friend Jess invited me to go to a class at AiV for a day regarding Visual Effects. Which is what I want to do when I'm finished school in Feb. '09.

I think today though, I will start sending my resume to some of the companies out there, seeing if I can help out and what not. Hmm... we'll see.

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-s.c.